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February 9th, 2009

I'm Back!!!! @ 07:26 pm

Current Mood: happy happy

Its so hard to get to this point, and even now I'm not sure if I'm here yet. The point where getting out of bed gets easier because the habit of actually doing the exercise is taking over. I've been eating pretty healthy and exercising at least 6 days a week for the last 2 weeks and i think I'm starting to see results. I fit my swimmers top again, YAY! and my attitude is definitely picking up.  I'm so impatient. I guess you've got to stop and think about how long the weight has taken to get there. I really wish I could exercise hardcore for a week and wake up one morning having lost all the unwanted kilos. I'm throwing myself in the deep end now and stepping up my exercise. I run 5 days a week for 30 mins (plus 5 warm up and 5 cool down). I'm starting weights this week ( 3 sessions per week, alternating top and bottom half of body) and swimming 3 days per week of whatever I can manage. The swimming is such a struggle for me. I'm so proud to say that I did 6 laps today, even if I did die for a couple of mins in between each lap. I'm looking forward to touch on Thursday. Last week I went on the wing and got so bored. So this week I'm going to be right in the middle of it, then I will see some action!!! Its a really good game, once you get the hang of it. I think doing the weights training will really help my body start to loose the weight. I'm so focused. I remember wishing, only a couple of weeks ago, that I could be the fitness freak that I once was. And I'm  really happy to announce:  I'M BACK!!!!

January 29th, 2009

OMGWTFBBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!! @ 10:47 pm

Current Mood: bouncy bouncy

I'm still pinching myself, I can't believe I did that!!!  I've always wanted to play in a team sport and tonight I joined a touch team!!! how awesome!! I've always wanted to but at school I was never picked for teams and thought I would never get into team sports. Then Michael gives me a gentle shove,  and I'm doing it!! So happy right now! I've got a team shirt too, I'm number 1.  I had noooo idea how to play and by the end of the night I was getting the hang of it. At first I had so many moments where everyone was waiting for me to do something, that i had no idea i should be doing. I just laughed it off and kept at it. I can't wait till next week.

weight loss is still going strong. I got my treadmill yesterday and have been for two 30min runs on it so far. I love it! I had a couple of days where I started slipping back into old habits of crappy food and can't be bothered exercising, but overall I'm really proud of my effort and I think I've started to get the weight moving. I've come to a realisation, that the only person who can make it happen is me, so I'd better get myself together.
It might sound silly but I really want to be in the circus, doing aerials, and I've decided not to settle for second best. I've thought about becoming a Physio (i love anatomy and physiology) and I've thought about joining the army, and I might still do these things later down the track, but what i really want to do right now is circus and I'm not going to spend my life saying what if.  I would really like to be at a high enough level in my fitness and skills to audition for NICA (National Institute of Circus Arts).  That way I know even if I didn't make it into NICA, i would get into a circus or circus school of some description. I want to be here by the end of 2010, and with Michaels support, I really think this is achievable.  

January 22nd, 2009

Goodbye Pilbara Pounds! @ 05:02 pm

Current Mood: determined

Nothing really hurts me more than being told that I'm fat, except being asked if I'm pregnant. I should be used to it by now, the amount of times it has happened to me. Maybe its the way that I stand in conjunction with being overweight. I'm still really hurting from this comment and its been hours. Many people up here are very blunt, and maybe they don't care. I was sooo embarrassed. I felt my face flush red and I wanted to hide under a rock. Acting as if it was nothing I continued the conversation. That was really hard. Michael and I got back in the car and I cried most the way back to his office. I really wish people thought before they spoke and crushed someones feelings!!!

But... on a much happier note, at least I wont be overweight for too much longer.  I am ready to get rid of the Pilbara pounds.  It took a while for me to be ready but I know just how much effort I will have to put in to be where I want to be. I have 20-25kg's to loose, so I better get started. I'm starting to eat healthy and get my fitness regime in order. My super-awesome-fun-happy-time Treadmill arrives soon and I am soo looking forward to the endorphin highs.....good times....

I'm just going to use this as motivation. I think its the best motivation ive got so far.

November 25th, 2008

first post @ 06:24 pm

Current Mood: content content

this is my first post
i don't want to say too much in my first one,
I'm gonna sing instead
La la la la la la la la la la la la la
la la la la

that's it
i feel so much better that i finally got that done with.